Someone in the dark: The old me is behind. I will march ahead anew•

2013-09-19

The old me is behind. I will march ahead anew•

So wrote Michael when he stayed at The Lodge in Pebble Beach , California sometime in the late 80s or early 90s.

Also, remember David Nordahl mentioning in both AllForLoveBlog’s interview with him as well as his interview with Deborah of Reflections on the Dance, that Michael thought himself ugly and did not consider himself handsome. This seems significant because in the note he wrote to himself below, Michael seems to be repeating an affirmation to himself ie: “I’m Beautiful“. Here are one of the quotes from Nordahl about what Michael thought of his appearance:

We had many talks about that (his looks). He had that inner light and he always considered himself to be extremely ugly. He said he’s not a handsome man. ‘That’s why I don’t do interviews and I don’t go on talk shows.’ He said ‘First of all, I don’t lead an interesting life, I work all of the time’ (and that’s what he did, he worked all of the time).

He never did really understand that he had that inner light.

Sitting and talking to Michael I would look into his eyes and I could see for 1,000 miles. He had these most incredible eyes. They come off good on film, but nothing like in person. When you’re actually sitting across there looking at him. Those eyes were unbelievable.

The following are items that were up for auction at Juliens and have been sold to some private collectors. It’s sad to me because I personally feel these items ought to be in a Michael Jackson museum, along with the Neverland household items. Part of admission proceeds could go to a charity Michael supported. This endeavor might be as good or better one for Michael’s legacy than some others the estate is involving itself in, though maybe not as profitable. It’s a shame to have such treasure scattered hither and yon never to be seen again. But, that’s just my own personal opinion and I digress.

Here are the notes Michael wrote to himself on the back of laundry service sheets at The Lodge.

I'm Beautiful

I’m beautiful. I’m beautiful. I’m beautiful. I’m beautiful. I’m gorgeous. God is for me, who can be against me? I’m beautiful. I’m a new person now. Beautiful. Knowing the secrets and determined with fire to move mountains in all I do. Moulding my own world. I’m beautiful. The old me is behind and I will march ahead now.

Then, Michael writes about programming the mind to achieve your goals and to become what you want to be. Probably great advice coming from the greatest entertainer of all time. Michael writes:

'We can program ourselves'...

I have learned that it is what you put in your mind mentally what you think and do, that makes your person. And you can put any mental object in this mind and it will bring it to reality. So this means we can program ourselves to be the people we want to be, Whatever the subject matter is, live in it By a mental physical program or system of learning and doing. Studying all the greats in that field and becoming greater. My program will consist of, =

And in the same Julien’s auction was the treasure below. If it were me, I’d be unable to part with such a piece, unless I was life-threateningly desperate. Description of the item below:

Crayon medium on paper, hand drawn and signed by Michael Jackson. The image is of Michael Jackson’s lower legs and feet in the position of one of Jackson ’s famous dance moves. Blue hues with orange-red accents, a feeling of movement is present throughout the piece created by Jackson ’s handling of line. The drawing is on the verso side of a sepia tone print of “The Book” by artist Brett-Livingstone Strong, signed in pencil by Jackson and Strong. The print is inversed on the page. 40 by 26 1/4 inches.

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And that print of ‘The Book‘ is also sold by Juliens. Description: “An artist proof of a 1990 edition of the Michael Jackson portrait “The Book” signed by both Michael Jackson and the artist, Brett-Livingstone Strong. 43 1/4 by 33 1/2 inches”